Monday, November 16, 2009

agotado...


Some things are just better described in another language, perhaps because we have worn out all the words we know. After 10 years I have found a new word to describe how I feel. I think I need a whole new language.
I know that I will not heal until I forgive. And I have tried. God knows I have read about it, prayed about it, meditated about it, chanted it, blogged about it, journaled about it...everything but done it. I have got to move on.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

still thinking...


I wonder sometimes if I have just been so battered and bruised that I will never be really myself again. If the sore spots will ever heal...if I will ever be able to just "get on with it" and live my life. I guess time will tell. For now, back to my version of normal.