There are no words, really, to describe my trip. It was just as it should have been. I am left sorting out images and memories and waiting for some deep meaning to settle in. For now I am content in having found the following:
Finally being able to "be in the moment". Even with over a hundred people waiting to see "la doctora" I was totally in sync with each patient as they came. I spent the day going from one child to the next completely without distractions: no cell phone, no beeper, no residents, no car pool, no bills, no economy, no debates, no distractions...and was therefore able to give 100% of my attention to the moment at hand. At the end of the day I was contentedly tired..not ever overwhelmed, and totally satisfied with the days work. I didn't think that was possible.
Recognition, once again, that people are basically good and kind. When you strip away all the extra shit we surround ourselves with, we are all just basic people who want the best for our families. And, we all love a smile, and a friendly hug.
Spending time with people my own age was fun. And at the same time it emphasized that I am, after all, alone. I guess I really do need to get out more.
